My blog has a new look. This deserves a new blog post, too.
I haven’t posted a Life Lately blog post in a while and I take that as a good thing, seeing that I’m busy enough with my life to actually have no time to share my whereabouts. But since I have spare time in my hands (and because I miss doing a random blog post), here’s another Life Lately volume for you all tonight. 🙂
Lately, I have been:
- Hoarding lipsticks and books
- Catching up with friends
- Focusing on blogging
- Attempting to read books again
- Traveling local
- Practicing my skills on photography
- Trusting fate
Do you ever get that feeling when you just really want something and you won’t rest until you get it, but you end up not liking it much anyway? Well, the same thing has happened to me a few weeks back. I couldn’t stop buying lipsticks even though I don’t really need them (which explains my stuffed makeup bag by now), and then the lipsticks turned into books, so now I’m juggling about three books at a time. I pick up whatever I feel like reading at the moment, but don’t force myself to finish a chapter every day.
Lately, I’ve been trying to be more trusting with my decisions. I know this happens when you want something with no assurance, but put all your energy and heart into it because you believe in it. That’s the beauty of fire, of passion. You become relentless and start to dream really big dreams. Sadly, to some, it only looks like you’re wasting your time. But isn’t it the point of youth? To spend your energy, time, and effort towards something that you actually love?
I quote John Green, “What is the point of being alive if you don’t at least try to do something remarkable?”
This is where my anxiety kicks in.
I recently assessed my recurring behavior and came to a conclusion that I may have anxiety, one way or another. I don’t want to romanticize it, but it’s really hard when I get random panic attacks in the middle of the day or magnify a simple situation. At one point, I even wrote a random rambling on my anxiety and ended up with a really long free verse poem. I’ll share it here, maybe, it’s just that it’s still in the process of being written. I can’t say that it’s completely finished yet because I feel I can still make it read better.
So I mentioned that I have been busy with life lately, and a part of that is me choosing to focus on my blogging craft. I become stubborn with my dreams when I believe in them hard enough, and one of those dreams is to be a full-fledged blogger. It may sound ridiculous, but I really aim to be an inspiration for other people. I want to share what I know, I want others to know that this and that event or product exists. I simply want to create awareness while using my own voice. I believe it has always been my calling. I have this impulse to reach out to people and leave them feeling better if you get what I mean. Anyway, so there’s that. Just don’t be surprised if I get extra active on my social media platforms. That’s probably me trying to be more proactive and gain more connection.
In line with blogging, I realized that I can’t achieve my dreams if there are barricades around me, so I have to sacrifice something to gain something else. But I don’t regret my decision because I trust my instincts and so far, it’s not giving me weird signals. Sometimes a door must be closed for a new one to be opened, right? I’m pretty proud of myself for going the extra mile and knowing that I have to put in the work first before I reap the rewards because, so far, it has opened opportunities for me and my blog is not as dormant as it used to be. I can already see a path behind all the fog, I just have to keep walking to get there and go beyond.
“I am learning every day to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me.” – Tracee Ellis Ross
Two more things that are new in my life right now are Lightroom and Patrixia. If you follow me on my socials, you would know that I can’t stop yapping about Lightroom. I was blown away by the possibilities that I could do to my photos. It was too good to be true. As for Patrixia, she’s my new Trinx folding bike. No, I don’t know how to ride a bike.. yet. But trust that I will. I mean, I have to. I didn’t know a bicycle could so expensive. LOL. Jec bought it for me so as a thank you, I need to learn how to ride it. No force in here, though. I’m actually pretty excited to start my riding lesson with him. If I can’t drive a car, then at least I can ride a bike, right?
In other news, I’m starting to save for my travel fund (this is not a drill, it’s for real now) albeit from scratch. And this time, there’s no backing out because I plan to give Jec the grandest birthday celebration ever! Okay, chill, maybe not that grand, but at least I want him to have a good day. I owe him that at least for being patient with a brat like me. LOL.
If you’ve read my recent blog posts, maybe you have noticed that Jec and I have been doing a lot of local travels lately. Nothing fancy. In fact, we typically just walk the streets of Manila until we get tired like we have done here and here,. I’m thinking that maybe that could be my niche. I’ve been blogging for years now, but I still can’t pinpoint what my brand is about, which is actually ironic, right? LOL. So anyway, The Bae Blogs could be about Manila, local goods, and the like. It makes sense because I don’t travel internationally and I’m still enjoying Manila at her finest.
So that’s what’s been happening to my life lately. This one’s a pretty long post for something random, but if you were able to relate to anything I said, hit me up and let’s talk about it. 🙂
Oh, and if you could just do me a small favor, use that comment box below to type down your thoughts on The Bae Blogs’ new look. I’d appreciate your feedback. 🙂
Stay golden! ♥
Bae is a 20-something passion blogger from Manila. She likes hoarding hobbies and trying out new stuff, blogging about her mundane adventures, and tweeting about random realizations and musings.